She raises her eyebrows. She didn't know Rags got assigned that fast. "Maybe he just has a lot of dice and it's fucking random. I don't even know what I should be trying to do or change."
"Be a better person," he tells her with a laugh, but he sobers a bit afterwards, tracing patterns against her floor.
His conversation with Cassandra's been weighing on him, but it's not something that he can just up and talk to Kiryu about. It's not something he feels like he can talk to anyone about. Anyone who isn't, well - a friend.
"Hey - do you ever - feel like you've just been one fucking thing your whole life? And you'll never be anything else?"
That makes sense. Human. He can just be human. Now he feels dumb for bringing it up, but he can't just back out.
"Well, I've only...ever been a thief. Rags the thief. And that's all I ever thought I could be. But, I don't know. Maybe I'm not just that? But if I'm not, I guess I don't know who or what I am," he tells her softly.
He gets up, takes her hand, and follows her up onto the bed. "Ah, here? No. When I go home? Maybe. I don't know. My life is so fucked at home that I don't know what's going to happen when we go back. We're going to defeat Morien. Take down the Queen, I guess. And then life is going to change and I guess I don't have to be a thief anymore, but I don't know what else I'm going to be. I don't - have any other skills. I can juggle real fucking good."
"That's - I kind of like being in the garden," he admits. "Not that I want to be a fucking farmer or anything. But I know that I can keep a garden. I can plant things and I know what they need."
He smiles. "I turned into a fae for a while, during the flood. Did you know? And I could fucking talk to the plants."
"They all want more fertilizer because it tastes good?" he laughs. "I don't know. They're needy fuckers. But they don't know what they need. They just like to complain and tell me how they miss real sun."
"No, thank fuck," he mutters. "I did see him as a wolf, but that's something that he does on his own, I think. We fought a bit, though. That was alright. I could actually kind of keep up with him in that way."
Taylor looks at him, raising an eyebrow, and tilts her device enough that he can see the video of a small ferret bouncing around gleefully in coils of Taylor's webbing.
"You're the stupidest smart person I know, so you're perfect for each other." She grins at, but shuts her device off. No risk of her sending it right now, anyway.
"Perfect for nothing," he mutters, hopping back down and pouting playfully on the floor. "Anyway, he's your warden. You shouldn't talk about your warden like that."
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His conversation with Cassandra's been weighing on him, but it's not something that he can just up and talk to Kiryu about. It's not something he feels like he can talk to anyone about. Anyone who isn't, well - a friend.
"Hey - do you ever - feel like you've just been one fucking thing your whole life? And you'll never be anything else?"
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She steps down from her bed, though, sitting on the edge of it to be not so far above him.
"But I've definitely felt like I'm trapped being what I am, and not known how to move on."
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"Well, I've only...ever been a thief. Rags the thief. And that's all I ever thought I could be. But, I don't know. Maybe I'm not just that? But if I'm not, I guess I don't know who or what I am," he tells her softly.
"It's fucking stupid."
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"Thief is a job, Rags. You can be a thief, but you still take your hand out of people's pockets and quit for the day. You're not nothing when you do."
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"I never stopped doing that," he tells her. "That was my life. Because if I stopped, I'd die. Even here, I still do it."
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"Still think you'd die?"
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"You can take all the time you want here before you go home, though. Build some skills up. That's what I've been doing."
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He smiles. "I turned into a fae for a while, during the flood. Did you know? And I could fucking talk to the plants."
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She pulls her hair back into a ponytail, letting a spider tie it, only in part because she remembers what else he turned into during the flood.
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"They all want more fertilizer because it tastes good?" he laughs. "I don't know. They're needy fuckers. But they don't know what they need. They just like to complain and tell me how they miss real sun."
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He groans a bit.
Dramatically.
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"Take that off! Why do you have that!" he laughs.
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He rubs the back of his neck.
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Even temp wardens doing her a large favor.
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