She grins, pulling one of Ulla's hands up to her lips. "I'd love to swim with you so much. There, or anywhere else. Maybe we could go back to Blue York sometime."
"I could kiss you there, like I realized I wanted to last time," Ulla muses.
"Because that's where I figured it out. After I left you, Warren and I sat
on some steps leading down into the water and he reminded me that you're
nothing like Signy. That you're brave, and you aren't selfish, and I was
choosing someone better. I already knew you're nothing like her, of course,
but I was scared."
Her smile warms, and she shifts Ulla's head so she can scoot down, lie in the grass beside her and wrap her arms around her waist. "I'd been stupid about you for a while, at that point.
"It was so shallow at first," she admits. "You were just this- this work of art, living among us. I didn't know you."
"I almost always hate when people look at me that way. But you never...
pushed it on me. It didn't feel like pressure I needed to squirm out from
under."
She kisses Taylor's cheek. "Warren says some people don't want that
way until someone already matters. Until they care, or trust. I'm like
that. I've never wanted anyone except you or Signy. And I didn't even
recognize my feelings for Signy as what they were until after the
fact. Until the breach where you and I were together, which is why I took
it so badly in the aftermath. Because the way I felt about you in another
life made me realize what I'd felt for her in this one. It dug the old
hurts in deeper. Thank you for being worth trusting, a thousand times
over."
Taylor glances away, well aware of how pink her cheeks are, and then tilts her forehead against Ulla's. "Promise to tell me if I'm ever not? So I can fix it?"
"I will," Ulla agrees, then kisses her, soft and slow. "But there's
nothing to fix so far. You'll promise me the same? Tell me if there's ever anything wrong, or anything you want?"
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"I could kiss you there, like I realized I wanted to last time," Ulla muses.
"Because that's where I figured it out. After I left you, Warren and I sat on some steps leading down into the water and he reminded me that you're nothing like Signy. That you're brave, and you aren't selfish, and I was choosing someone better. I already knew you're nothing like her, of course, but I was scared."
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"It was so shallow at first," she admits. "You were just this- this work of art, living among us. I didn't know you."
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"I almost always hate when people look at me that way. But you never... pushed it on me. It didn't feel like pressure I needed to squirm out from under."
She kisses Taylor's cheek. "Warren says some people don't want that way until someone already matters. Until they care, or trust. I'm like that. I've never wanted anyone except you or Signy. And I didn't even recognize my feelings for Signy as what they were until after the fact. Until the breach where you and I were together, which is why I took it so badly in the aftermath. Because the way I felt about you in another life made me realize what I'd felt for her in this one. It dug the old hurts in deeper. Thank you for being worth trusting, a thousand times over."
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"I will," Ulla agrees, then kisses her, soft and slow. "But there's nothing to fix so far. You'll promise me the same? Tell me if there's ever anything wrong, or anything you want?"
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