"My- my dad blamed me, for my mom. I was supposed to answer my phone, she was trying to reach me... He knew better, but-" Her shoulder lifts in a shrug. "He did. And he told someone who told someone who told me. And I- did not have the inner... I don't know. Distance, I guess. To know that he was wrong. So I was afraid he was right. For years, every time I thought something good about myself. How could I ever do the right thing, when I'd killed my own mom? A huge meal of fear, for whoever ran that particular simulation for me."
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"My- my dad blamed me, for my mom. I was supposed to answer my phone, she was trying to reach me... He knew better, but-" Her shoulder lifts in a shrug. "He did. And he told someone who told someone who told me. And I- did not have the inner... I don't know. Distance, I guess. To know that he was wrong. So I was afraid he was right. For years, every time I thought something good about myself. How could I ever do the right thing, when I'd killed my own mom? A huge meal of fear, for whoever ran that particular simulation for me."